Within the walls…

I woke up to the same four walls

Pretty they may be but they are still the same even though they might change outwardly from time to time

I took a stroll around the room no doors just those two little windows in the far end of the room

It is ok I said to myself I’m free here at least I can think as I wish that is what counts

Yes I said to myself again I’m free no one can tell me what to do, no one

Ah its is quiet here I like it, no noise, no people

As these words were spoken I knew I was lying to myself to feel better

Freedom, what freedom?! I’m stuck in four walls!

I can’t leave them yet I’ve convinced myself it is enough for me to have the freedom of thought and action only within these four walls

I said to myself I’ll look through the windows

Maybe I can talk to someone outside to get involved in the world out there

I peered through them only to be overcome by fear, fear of the unknown

What if something bad happened? What if someone not good came along to hurt me?

I’m safe here right? Safe within these walls, no one can come in

Stop kidding yourself you can’t keep hiding in here, I said to myself

Life does not happen within these walls, it happens outside

Learning happens outside and within these walls and I need to come to a compromise between both

I was trying to persuade myself that I have freedom and that monsters are outside to avoid entering the world

I can always find a haven here

But is it not much of a life to be trapped within the walls of your own mind…

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